WinCo.............Show must go on!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so exited about this conference!!!!!
Not about elections - it's that part that I don't want to see!!!!!
But I wanna see people....people that became so important for me for last year... guys that are working with me.... with some of them it will be the last time when we will see each other.
I miss my friends..... I miss filling of being a part of something big .... a part of great organisation....
My dear LC Kharkiv, my NEXT team, my VP Xs, MC and specially Savranska, newies and oldies..... just all people I know I can't wait to see u:

end of the story about my EB XP

Ok.....
Then the worsts conference ever.... LDS, somewhere i lost my motivation and passion..... my believes and trust to some people... Something backed to me something..... such a trust, Will never come back......
I'm too tired to write about everything what has happened in that conference and I don't want to do it....
I just want to write that i fill really sorry about people..... all people... who had gone and who is still working.... sometimes we can be so stupid!!!!!!


Then were 1000 of different things... good and bad - wrong and right.......... and at the end of this year I can say - It's my @ XP!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be..........

Thanks God finally i know what i want to do next year........ and My opinion won't be changed.... I was thinking so long about it but today.. i found...... everything is about passion...... I believe everything will be just great!!! I'm ready to work full of emotions..... and great mood!!!!!!!!!!

orange girl

Христос ся рождає!!!!!!!!

Це сьогодні Божа Мати

Господиня в Вашій хаті,

Для своєї бо дитини,

В Вас справляє уродини.

Веселий день, весела новина!

Вітає Ісус Вас, маленька дитина!

Вітає і хоче Вам щиро сказати,

Благословення принести до Вашої хати!

Може в тій хаті кого бракує,

Може в тій хаті хто гірко сумує.

Кого бракує - не забувайте,

Хто гірко сумує - розвеселяйте.

Разом з Ісусом маленьким на сіні

Всіх вас вітаєм на Україні,

Щоб ниви зростали без грому,

без тучі Добром наливалися зерна лискучі,

Хай вам Бог в кождім ділі помагає.

Христос ся рождає!

about 2006 - part III

I think this part will be the biggest one, as here I'm going to describe the most incredible XP I got this year - my EB XP.....

Everything started from Spring LCC... i didn't expect to go but Ryzha as always changed my mind. The Conference like the conference - Lot's of motivation... Lot's of @ dances as there where soooo cold..... finally Saturday evening, elections of LCP and EB 2006-2007. I was shocked!!!!! First, that Yura - who came with me to @ applied for VP PD, second he was elected (Hm great job Yura), thirds Chopej applied for VP ER and I thought VP X. The finnal situation was following Yulya Khruslova - LCP, Yura Gavrylyuk - VP PD, Vitya Chopej - VP ER, Natalya Scheglova - VP PR and Brending....... Another shock that the most important direction stayed with out VP. (It was the first time when in my mind I was thinking about this position as something real). Then i asked Yulya what is going to be with X and she said :"we ganna open position for X coordinator"

The application form was opened. i was thinking for a week... I was thinking about my results in this organization and I realized that I don't have so many of them .. i raised just two TNs. I don't know will I'll be able to finish my PBoX, i made not so many meetings .... and what I'm telling I just started to work month ago.
I deleted application from my computer.... and was watching TV.. suddenly Zhenya called to me.. we where speaking for 1 hour.... She said one really important thing - U want results???? apply, work and make them. the most important thing is not about results that are already achieved but it's about Passion, hard working, and results that can be achieved!!!!!!!! That evening i spoke to 5 or 6 people whom i believed ........ so next day I filled the application .... it was hard some questions I even didn't understand.... also i didn't have Internet at home.... (those things weren't on my side)
Then interview.... I remember just one question I was asked.. U know we have 2 candidates for this position, tell as why u are better choice (to be frank i didn't believe at that moment that somebody applied for it too.... but when I got out the office i saw Rusya standing near the stairs.. Ow God he was that second..... ) I realized that i have no chance, Rusya is more experienced and know more then me.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 22:21:21 +0300

[lc-franik] Coordinators RESULTS!!!!!! the massage on LC -Franik (I was sitting near the computer and looking to the display.... open or not... In my mind different pictures where running all the time...) I was so scare... and funny thing that I don't remember what I was afraid more to be elected or to be not...." In any case this massage is going to change my @ life" - I thought.)

Dear @ Franik,
pls WELCOME
new Coordinators 06/07
so..........
Here are people who will work for you with passion & all their heart
People who will make our lovely LC even more better
................they are..................
LC IS Coordinator - Bachynska Khrystyna-Mariya
LC X Coordinator - Mykhailyuk Tetyana
LC X Delivery Coordinator - Rusyn Oleg
Urrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
1000s of CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!
GOOD LUCK, GUYS!!!!!

Something New has started at that moment.....

Ten day to my first conference....... SprinCo..... guys for that 10 day I learned more than last months... Identity, @ XP .... so simple things now and so difficult and not understandable that time.... I joined different X communities.. to be always in a right direction.. I read dozens documents about X.....I was studying and It's for sure wasn't so easy for me..

SprinCO...... I remember just awful fillings on our way to the Berdik.... my new team or better say some members of EB didn't like me, I felt that I'm still a stranger in this group of people.. they have their own "prikolu", they spend so many days together... Sometimes i wanted to cry.....

In a train we had wonderful session from Kiyashko about Balance Score Card, product leadership.... I felt that for me it's easier to understand it (then to other EB members) cause , I don't know how it was previous year, for me everything were just new and for them different..

We came to Berdik..... wow!!! what a beautiful city!! One more time i wanted to cry .......when Vitya ignored me all the time when i wanted to take some pics :) (at the end of the conference we made the ppt about Franik EB it was so pity when everybody had 4 or 5 pics and me and Christya had just 2, we couldn't choose which one we want to put on ppt as we had just 3 or 4 from all the conference). I know it's not so important thing in working but still for me at that time the support from my team was extremely needed but i didn't get it...

The conference was really great, I got the most important - motivation, I met so many new people, learned so many new things...... first time I started to search for the answers insight me.... I understood that I don't want to work with such a team... so the best way is stop complain and try to change it:)... first I tried to speak to Khristya (before that I couldn't imagine that we can talk as we completely different people), word after word.... She IS SO COOL GIRL!!!!!! How could I think that she is boring.... Ow Khristya thank u so much for those evenings in our room:)

Conference song - Roxette - How_Do_You_Do!!? - even now when I tired but still have a lot of work or when I feel bad I listen this song.....

Ow one more thing ..... as i wrote on WinCo I thought i don't need to know those people - new MC, and on SprinCo i was sorry for that...... U never now what is going to happen next.....

Next month I was busy with my project and X process in my LC, hmm also EB started our beautiful planing according to Balance Score Card....

Well..... I'm not going to tell everything I was doing .....or speak about every event... that i visited as it ganna be the longest post ever.... I just wanna share ...things that i will never forget...

next I'm going to say a BIG Thanks to Vitya:) for keeping me all the time growing... Maybe it's strange to hear but this person motivated me the most.... and u know why??? Because first 2-3 months I felt that he doesn't like me.. he doesn't believe that i can make anything in this position cause i'm too young in @.... all those things made me stronger and gave me a power to work..... :)

to be continued.... (read next posts)

about 2006 - part II

Here I am......

I came back from WinCo.. and started to work in my LC, I had an idea of PBoX and I was really passioned about it. I was ready to become an OCP .........

but before that i forgot to tell about other challenge I got. From November I was working in ICX direction but close to the spring I realized that I didn't do something there.. ... all of us had a list of companies that we needed to contact and everybody did it besides me.. I was too afraid to call to the president of any company. I remember - one evening when I was sitting along in my room..... It was Tuesday.... and I decided - if I don't make a meeting with a company this week I'm ganna leave @... U know, I felt @ the first time that day.

Next day I asked my group friend (she was in @ before me) to help me to make my first call. And i did it - my blood was boiling, I felt every blow of my heart, the adrenalin in my blood was so high that I couldn't stand up... but I did it - first company said to call on Monday, second to call in summer as they changing the structure and thirds one said ok:) let's meet. I made my first meeting on Friday - I will remember that day for a long time.... I didn't singed the contract but the meeting was great.

Then I became the OCP of Summer miracle PBoX... What i learned ? first time I faced with all those management functions that were just a theory for me a month ago. First I was planing .... than i choose a team - guys with whom I was working for 3 month.

I remember the day when i singed two contracts with a summer camp.. and then I had a big challenge to go along somewhere to the region, or better say, to the village where my next camp was situated..... I was walking along from my bus station trying to find that place. All people around me ware looked at me strangely as they so me the first time in their little world.... I was so scare...... 3 times I fucked my self why I didn't take somebody from my OC team to go with me.... but it was too late to think about that... i made another meeting.... after i came back to Ivano-Frankivsk in late evening I set in my room and was thinking ..... u know what? if somebody told me on year ago that I will be traveling along around the region and promoting the project probably I would said U are sick!!!!!!!!!!! It's not about my life. But It was my...

In final case i didn't make this PBoX, now i see few reasons: 1. I didn't make the research before the PBoX (that's why I couldn't match TNs), 2. This PBoX needs preparation about one year and i try to do it in 5 month 3. I think I gave up my hope.. the worst thing when u don't believe in what u are doing... somewhere in the May i realized that it's impossible to do .... And now I think that it was the most important reason .. ...

about 2006 - part I

Happy New year!!!!!

Well, I've already had a blog but after one month of no using it, I forgot the password.. So I would like to start again.

New Year has started 2 days ago, I believe that this year will bring me even more challenges and just make me stronger.

Today I was thinking about 2006..... How it was?

12:00 a.m 1th of January 2006 - tired but happy to get my first @ XP being OCP of New Year party. I was busy all the night organizing the celebration. I don't remember much cause I was too tired and maybe a little bit drunk, but I had a fun.... This XP wasn't so important in @ development but it was wonderful XP that I got for my personal life (specially cooking for two days)

Then I had three bad days before Christmas..... It was the first time when I faced with problems in @, when intern don't have a place to live and nobody cares about it. I understood that reception in my LC it's just a bull shit!!!! so I decided to go to the reception team, I spend with interns all my free time and helped them as I could at that time. after that I got first result of my work....... On winter LCC I got award for being the best reception buddy.

On my first meeting with a mentor I said:" I want to be reception coordinator, I want to change the situation in my LC":)

Then I came to the WinCo.... to be frank I'm really shamed about this conference.. cause I got nothing there, I just spend my money for resting.. I was slipping during all sessions, than i pref ere to read the book I brought with me instead of going to the plenary and listen to the applicants.

I thought that i don't need to now those people, as for sure I won't be able to work with them. I didn't think about any values or @ XP Principles... I even didn't know them. I saw just three speeches - Marinna's, Masha's and thirds one I don't remember who it was. This conference was good time for me to relax and have fun with my LC. that's all what I got!!!!

Now typing this post I want to say: U who are reading this blog, take every possible learning points from every situation, don't go to the conference just to have fun go to learn something and get fun by learning.